Colours on the inside, twenty years ago.

So, this week. I should really get my diary to remember this, because I try to write down what I've been doing... but really, that's not going to work, because I've been slack.

Monday. I had German class, of course. I'm not sure what I did in the afternoon. That evening I went to Cl's house with A... it was a farewell for Mg, and he was completely trashed. But Cl and I sang a couple of songs, which was fun. Everyone was smoking so my clothes smelled awful. Ch actually talked to me for once, so either I've done something wrong or he's developed some logic. Don't really care either way, actually. Anyway, we left at about midnight, which meant that I was pretty tired in class on Tuesday. That evening I felt like moving, so went for a bit of a jog. Knee was a bit stuffed afterwards, but I felt good that I'd done that. I need to do that more. I don't know what I did Tuesday night, but I'm pretty sure it involved going to bed early. I always feel so much better when I get a lot of sleep! It ended up just being too impossible and too expensive to go to Amsterdam for the show. Oh well.

Wednesday was German class again. Wednesday night was the Brazilian Evening in the Eurobiz office. Didn't stick around for too long, in favour of hanging out at my house, which was nicer. Plus it was awesome that I didn't have class the next day, so I could stay up for as long as I liked. I slept pretty well and was happy to laze around in bed until some appallingly late time on Thursday.

Thursday I went to V's house because we were meant to study. Sd had just arrived so they were eating breakfast, and it was good to hang out normally. E and Kr came later too... we talked in German but didn't really study anything, and I left at about 5pm. Went to a quiz night with Ju and her friends, but didn't talk too much, and the questions were really hard. I think it'd be nicer if I go back with some of my own friends next time. The questions were in two languages, too.

Friday I had class, and then we all had lunch in the Mensa. O came with us and ate, which was nice. She'd told S and I that morning that she was pregnant, which really just confirmed my suspicions. So of course that day I'd told all the boys in the pause. We'd had the first half of the lesson outside, too, because the weather was so sunny and beautiful. Anyway, after lunch I had Tandem with K. After that I sent Sd a message to ask if he was still in the library, so I went there to meet him.

The weather was so awesome and warm and sunny that we went for a walk behind the university... walked through lots of fields and eventually few trees to walk through. Anyway, Sd and I chilled out for a few hours under the trees, practicing our mediocre German, before walking back. We went to Real and bought some bits and pieces for dinner, then went back to his place and hung out for a while. Cooked dinner, ate dinner. Had a few frustrating communication moments over the word "doubt", which pretty much killed me, because I'm the kind to let something drop if it's just creating tension. So that was a bit stressful, and I felt really annoyed at him. Anyway, I was exhausted, so I was ready for bed pretty early.

The next day I got a message from Ju inviting me to a bbq, but I would never have made it on time, and needed some alone-time anyway. I just can't be around other people all the time. I wish more people understood that.

Anyway, I went to Marktkauf and bought a few things. It felt like Sunday because of the public holiday on Thursday... the weather was beautiful again, and I was happy about that. I got an invite to a bbq in Vogeliusweg with V and Sd, and I went there about 9:45pm... I didn't really know anyone there, which was a bit awkward, and I know that someone asked V what was going on... frustrating. Sd walked me home, which was nice but unnecessary, and I went to bed about 1:30. Today I got up at 8:30 so that I'll be able to sleep a little earlier tonight, and not be too tired for class tomorrow. I haven't done my German homework so I should really do that soon.

This morning, I had a long breakfast (which I love doing)... breakfast always seems to involve oats, soy milk or joghurt, mixed with banana slices and frozen berries. It's a fantastic breakfast for when you're ravenous and get home at midday and need to eat something. Anyway, I sat in the kitchen on my laptop, until L and D came in, which destroyed my peace. I had eaten curry, and a big piece of poppyseed cake that I baked this morning, in order to take some to uni for snacking. I should cut it up into wedges and put it in the fridge so I'm not tempted to nibble at it.

I'm in the midst of a long string of messages with Mi on facebook, where we're talking about everything. She's the only one I've talked with in any seriousness lately... and she's the only one to know that my heart is elsewhere, not in this town. And I need to tell Sd that sometimes his company is too much and I get freaked out. But hey, all in good time. I should go do something else.