Everybody used to call you Lucky.

I take back what I said about the coffee - S beat me to it. She's awesome. I've been hanging out at home and watching Whip It, which I secretly love, even though it's cheesy. Makes me wish I hadn't donated those roller skates to Goodwill... but let's face it, I'm slow and I have poor balance, so it's not a sport that I'm cut out for, anyway. But hey, I'm a dreamer... why not just add that to my list of unrealistic future achievements?

The party on Friday night wasn't too bad. Baking with Mi was much more fun, actually. We made sweet treats, and then talked about music and shared bands. Then we danced in my kitchen to The Bronx and I sang at the top of my lungs to the Distillers, and she decided that she was going to be my manager. I decided I'm going to be a rock star, hahaha. But of course I decided that when I was a child, and it's still on top of the aforementioned list. I talked with C briefly, and decided he's still doing my best to avoid me, for which I plan on doing my best to make him feel awkward. Might be entertaining. Ch was thankful that we made snacks, we talked to some nice people, and I caught the bus home with A. C was on the bus and didn't even say goodbye, so I guess it's pretty clear that I'm no longer a welcome friend. I thought I was being nice by offering a sofa bed to someone who was too trashed to ride their bike home. Whatever.

Speaking of no longer being a welcome friend - I noticed that K has untagged himself from a whole bunch of photos on facebook. So I guess he doesn't want to be seen with me. Which consequently means he's not a real friend, because honestly, none of my real friends are embarassed to be in a photo with me. I was so annoyed - and, admittedly, pretty hurt. But now I realise that it's just not worth getting pissed off about things on the internet, and he can go to hell if he thinks I'm going to make any effort on his behalf. I'm sick of trying to be nice to people who are jerks in return. Mi was a supportive friend and sent me a text to say that everything would be ok, because I sent her a message to have a rant about it. But I'm over it - photos aren't important. I'm just going to be much too busy to cook dinner this week while I think about whether or not I'm going to say anything. I generally prefer passive-aggressive, lame as that is, so perhaps he'll notice I've gone cold. Perhaps not.

Anyway, on Saturday I was feeling a little seedy. I met the excursion group at the train station - Mi had breakfast there, but I had eaten at home. We caught the bus from there, and I felt quite ill and did my best to distract myself. The tour of Wewelsburg was fine, albeit rather long and it went over a lot of information that I would have thought was blindingly obvious to all. Evidently not, because one student asked about gas chambers, and I nearly died of frustration. We were able to watch a film about the concentration camp and the SS use of the castle while we waited for the other group to finish... but the Eurobiz group leader took us out of the film to meet the other group without checking whether or not they'd arrived yet. So we waited in the lobby for three quarters of an hour. I'd have thought that he could have checked so that we could have continued watching the testimonials, which I thought was the best part of the tour, but evidently not... oh well. The bus home was long and tedious, because Ma was being a completely dick and Mi was trying to explain to him that he was, albeit in the politest possible way. I intervened a couple of times.

At the train station, we were waiting for the other Ma to catch her train, so we had snacks and hot drinks at the cafe. I was quietly wishing that the original Ma would just leave, but he continued to stick around. I nearly punched him when he said that feminism was a bad idea, but thankfully no one continued that conversation, so I didn't have to get too angry on a personal level. I just felt bad for Mi, because she's organising the Eastern European party tomorrow and it seems like she hasn't been getting help from anyone else. So, my fingers are crossed for her, and I'll bake some cookies tomorrow and do my best to help out. We've decided that I'll pretend to be Russian for the evening.

Mi and Ma walked back with me to my house, and Mi and I ran upstairs so that she could collect the food and coloured paper that she'd left behind on Friday. I had a quiet night and went to bed early, which was definitely what I needed. Today I got up at 8:15, though I should have gotten up when my alarm went off so that I could get some sleep. I've done the most half-assed job of my German homework, it's embarassing that I couldn't pay attention to it. I'm so sick of learning German already, but hopefully this is just getting past the pain barrier, and then it'll be ok. I'm supposed to return E's guitar tomorrow and I've barely played it. I'm such a loser.

I talked to my parents on Skype today, which was nice. Mi and I went for coffee this morning before she started work on her internship stuff, and it was good to sit down and really chat. I wish she wasn't leaving in a week... I'm going to be lost without her. She's definitely become my closest friend here, and the only one who understands some of my music. Anyway, I downloaded movies and spent the afternoon on the internet, and now I should go to bed so that I'm not moody in German class tomorrow. We'll see.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that D called this evening, wanting to hang out and drink some wine. I swear he's obsessed with drinking wine. Anyway, I declined, because I was feeling antisocial. I couldn't stand his excessive cheerfulness - he's definitely much too chirpy for me to handle for long periods of time, and certainly not when I'm sulking. We're going swimming on Tuesday, that's enough. So, I'll wait for either L or his girlfriend to get out of the bathroom, and then I'm going to bed.